So difficult to no longer feel Mums presence. Even before arriving I always knew she would be looking for me waving on the step of my car giving me her wonderful smile & eyes full of love. Everything feels empty, void. Life is day after day of this. Going through the motions but each day filled with sadness, emptiness or loss of guidance from My Mother, best friend & guardian angel. My loss, loneliness, emptiness will never go. I love the rest of my family dearly with all my heart but there was & is only one 'Mum' XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX